Thursday, December 9, 2010


When I was younger, I always wanted to celebrate my 1/2 birthday. In fact, I think there were some years when my friends and I would bring each other little gifts to school for fun. Interesting how the older we get, the more we don't want to bring any extra attention to those milestones. I'd rather be just 29 than 29 1/2 any day. Unfortunately for me, the passage of time is not optional.

The good thing about this day is the realization that I need to get on my list. I've made some progress, but I've got a lot (a whole lot) of work to do. Also, I've got 6 months to get used to my milestone birthday. It will be here before I know it.

Happy 29 1/2 Birthday to me.

Thursday, November 25, 2010


Top 10 -- in no particular order
1. Life friends -- sisters, ems, old friends, and student wives -- who love me unconditionally and balance me out
2. Athena -- who is excited for me to get home even if I was grumpy with her before I left
3. A warm house & enough food in my belly
4. Jesus Christ
5. Family
6. A job
7. The fact I am almost done with school -- At the age of 29, I'll finally be a BA
8. Babies
9. Health
10. Hope

What are YOU thankful for?

For each new morning with its light,
For rest and shelter of the night,
For health and food,
For love and friends,
For everything Thy goodness sends.

Ralph Waldo Emerson

Sunday, October 3, 2010


Remember my friend and the baby that, according to doctors, was never supposed to be? Meet Elijah Michael. He's here and he's absolutely perfect.

Friday, October 1, 2010


Wow, I miss my friends today. I've been wishing so hard that we could be in the same place, but it's not working. Nothing makes the earth seem so spacious as to have friends at a distance; they make the latitudes and longitudes. ~Henry David Thoreau

Friday, August 27, 2010

Back to School

My first day of school - 1986

This week, after having a quick break, I started my last year of school. I say that now, but then my mind starts talking all crazy and brings up things like Masters degrees. We'll see where that leads. I am more than excited to finally be finishing what I started 12 years ago. Yeah, I could have been a doctor by now. Instead, I'm working at a med school. Hmm, interesting how life turns out.

Besides being excited, I have to admit it's a little scary. It takes a way any excuse I may have about not being qualified when looking for a job I love. Does that make sense? I can't say, "oh I'll apply at that really awesome dream job with great pay/benefits/people after I finish school." Cause "after" will be here in May. Then, there's the whole what-will-I-do-with-all-my-free-time bit because I'm learning I enjoy life most when I'm overly busy. There's something to be said for finding a balance, I suppose.

On an upbeat note, I think I'm going to love my new classes. Easy to say the first week of classes, but still. There's something about the way I am challenged in a liberal college that excites me. It reminds me why I believe the way I do, strengthens my resolve and helps me communicate better with others. It's healthy, I think.

Regardless of what's next, I'm excited for today. You know how some people have a family motto when their kids go to school. Well, after a minor freak out this weekend about the fact my next birthday is the big 3-0, I decided my new motto is "go big, or go home." Ultimately, I'm just happy to see how that plays out -- when I get my degree and while I'm in the process.

Thursday, June 10, 2010

June Baby

It takes courage to let go of your assumptions and fly your dreams as a soaring invitation to become the best version of yourself. ~ Mary Anne Radmacher
Here's to becoming the best version of myself in my 29th year!

Sunday, May 23, 2010

A Couple of Notes to Catch Up

Dear Renchers,
Thank you for the best vacation I have ever taken to Sandusky, OH! Sure, it's the only one I've ever taken, but that's hardly the point. I couldn't of had a better time. You are the definition of true friends and I'm thankful for you. Thanks for your hospitality and the new memories. Why did I not take any pictures? I am counting down until July.

Dear Des Moines,
I love you more everyday. I felt like such the local this weekend what with eating at the cutest greek restaurant ever, talking to the lady at the antique shop about the exciting things in store for the East Village, perusing through the pet store, consignment shop, and stationary store downtown, and buying local produce, honey, and eggs at the farmer's market. I love an adventure outside of the area (extended or not), but I am midwest through and through. You know what's funny, I'm pretty proud of that too.

Dear Linz,
Thanks for exploring D-town with me this weekend. Your company makes everything better.

Dear Sister,
You being in DSM this weekend reminds me what it is like to be in the same city. The reminder is bittersweet because it's the best when you're here, but my heart hurts a little when you're not. We've got to do something about this.

Dear Letters to Juliet,
I've been anticipating seeing you for a long time now. Seriously, you could have been so much better. If my company wouldn't have been good, it would have been a waste of 2 hours of my life.
Way disappointed,

Dear Work,
This whole making friends with students and their families, and then them leaving in 4 or less years is the worst occupational hazard ever. I'm thankful that you've brought me some new life friends and nieces/nephews to love on, but I wish we could be in the same place forever. I'm excited about all the possibilities for their lives and I know they're all going big places. If I ever need a podiatrist or orthopod (or whatever else they all decide to be), I'm confident I'll be in the best of hands. I'm just hoping they remember me someday when they are rich. :) I'm also looking forward to some girls' weekends in the years to come. Can that be arranged?

Dear Ava,
Your little swimsuit is the cutest thing I have ever seen.
Aunt Nikki

Dear Sunday,
Why do you sometimes give me the blues? You come too quick every single week. Please stop moving so fast.

Dear Self,
Don't sell your self short. I'm anticipating big things for you in the coming year.

Monday, May 3, 2010

Time Flies

Ava pouting on her first birthday because I stole her binky. You win some, you lose some I guess.

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

A Stirring

There's so much stirring in this heart of mine. More than I understand and can comprehend, but there's stirring none-the-less. I'm writing this because I want to remember this real life story forever. Today, I'm reminded that I love a God who still does miracles. I'm thankful that one of my very best friends modeled to me (and so many others) unshakable faith, perseverance, resolve and strength.

Her and her husband found out they were expecting their fourth child. Although the timing maybe didn't seem right, she knew she wanted this baby. She's one of the few that make motherhood look graceful. She personifies Proverbs 31 -- her children arise and call her blessed.

At her very first doctor's appointment she received news that could shake even the strongest -- knock the wind right out of you kind of news. Not only did her baby have a condition "incompatible with life," but if left alone could develop into cancer and kill my friend. The doctor began to refer to her baby as a tumor and that her only option was a D&C. But, then she heard a heartbeat. I've been told that something happens within a woman when she hears that precious noise, proof that life is being knit together inside her. She stood her ground and refused to abort this life. She prayed Jesus would take her baby if it was not to be.

A week or so later, she went back. No change in prognosis. She was told her baby would never grown limbs and was again encouraged to consider abortion. But, the heartbeat was still there. My friend is tough as nails, and had already made up her mind. She wouldn't end this life, so she prayed, her family prayed, her friends prayed, and even those she does not know prayed.

Another appointment came, and as the doctor performed her ultrasound something had changed. This "tumor" this "mass of cells incompatible with life," had limbs, and it looked like a baby. The doctor didn't understand and said she was defying any medical and scientific knowledge she had. And it still had a heartbeat.

Yesterday she had an amnio to check for chromosomal abnormalities. They came back normal. I'm sure I don't have to mention, that baby still has a heartbeat.

In the Old Testament, God gives Sarah a baby despite impossible odds. It's no coincidence that my friend shares this name. Her brother wrote about it and said, "She understood that it didn't matter what the doctors called her baby, because her God calls things that are not as though they are." That is truth.

Regardless of what those results would have been, I know Sarah's character, and I've seen her pray. It's hard to have faith in the unseen, but knowing God knows us despite how he answers, gives hope. I can imagine Sarah saying words like this song as she pleaded for Him to be nearand prayed for the life of the baby God promised her.

Come walk with me, speak to my heart, Lord, what's deep in me only you know, come walk with me...

The coolest thing...He listened.

If you think about, please, continue to pray for Sarah and her miracle.

Monday, March 8, 2010

Red Lips

These were, by far, my two favorite dresses from the Academy Awards -- gold, sparkly, and red lips. So classy. And hello, did anyone else cry during Sandra's acceptance speech? No? Oh, me neither. I mean...

Monday, March 1, 2010


If I would have followed through on my "Things I Love" list, these girls would have definitely made the cut. Other things that could have been included on the list from this picture: road trips, oatmeal pancakes, Baby Roman, being the only people in the city not wearing black, and Chicago. Here's to longer trips, in warmer weather, every year, and with forever friends.

P.S. Happy Birthday, Meg! XO

Thursday, February 18, 2010

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

Things I Love, Day 8 ♥

found here @ etsy

My state...
but mostly the lovely people that live in it.

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

Things I Love - Day 7 ♥

A come from behind story...
wrapped in his grandpa's military flag no less.

Monday, February 15, 2010

Things I Love, Day 6 ♥

I was planning on being done with my "Things I Love" list on Valentine's Day, but I've decided to challenge myself to carry it through out the entire month. With all this talk about things I love, it's next to impossible to be in a bad mood.
Betty found here @ The Plaid Peacock

Today I love "The Plaid Peacock," a new etsy business I just launched today with a my very best friend. We're making fabulous hair pieces -- something for everyone we hope.

I believe there's something inate inside each of us, a need to create, that we can't deny. Here's my stab at fulfilling those desires.

Check it out if you have some time... and tell all your friends too! :)

Sunday, February 14, 2010

Saturday, February 13, 2010

Things I Love - Day 4, 2nd ed. ♥

found here

Good people to live life with.

The best of friends and family who are creative, kind, encouraging, faithful, charming, passionate, perservering, ambitious, funny, generous, intelligent, witty, focused, stylish, loyal, and so much better than I deserve.

Friday, February 12, 2010

Thursday, February 11, 2010

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

Day For Lovers - 2nd Edition

My sentiments about Valentine's Day have not changed from last year. I still stand by my opinion that you don't have to have a lover to celebrate the things you love on February 14th.

Here's Day 1 of the things that I love... a lot. Some superficial, and some not-so-much.

Long cardigans.

Friday, January 29, 2010


found here by Sara Jackson

Someone asked me a question one day that I couldn't answer right away.

If you could give something to every person in the world what would it be?

I will always remember his answer.


That's what I want to give people too.

The thing is, giving hope requires action. Not just talking about it.

I have some friends who are involved in The Hope For Haiti Project. They taught me a principle years ago that I still know to be true today.

If you can't go, send someone who can.

That's what The Hope For Haiti Project is all about. Don't miss out. Go there.

It's your turn.

Give Hope.

Thursday, January 28, 2010

"I only know that I love you..." S. O'Hara

Not only do I want this outfit, I secretly want this life. The life that has time to go to the library to read, in a skirt none-the-less. I did venture to the library during one of our snow days and picked up a doozy. All 1000 plus pages of "Gone With the Wind." Have you read it? I'm inching along, slowly, getting lost, wanting to be named Scarlett, live in the South, and have a set of handsome twins vying for my affection (I'm just saying. That would be nice, no?!) . I'll let you know when I finish, if I finish (I have a bad habit of not doing that), but so far I highly recommend it.

Sunday, January 24, 2010


And by Ugg-ly I'm not refering to my dog...
I wear my slippers to stay warm. Athena prefers to lounge in front of the vent.
I'm going to go out on a limb here. I think Uggs are ugg-ly. Really, most boots with fur just aren't my favorite. Sure, I've worn a fake pair before, but I'm allowed to change my mind. Please don't get mad at me or get your feelings hurt because you like them and I don't. That's great if you do. I'm sure they look fabulous on you. We all have our preferences.

That being said, I've fallen prey to promises of toasty feet, walking on clouds, and hard soles on my slippers. I've already had 3 snow days this winter, and the only complaint I have are my poor toes. Target saved the day with these bad boys that I wear from the time I walk into the door until the second I leave... Accept that one time I went against my better judgement and wore them in public. Just once. But, for $15, I'm convinced you need a pair too -- whether you like Uggs or not.

Thursday, January 21, 2010

It Is NOT "O-Ten"

Etsy Garland by KristinaMarie seen here

I had grand plans for my 100th post (yay me!), but it didn't happen. Then the inspiration was gone and I had nothing. So here it is...

Don't you it hate how it's easier to find the negative, than the positive. It takes more work to see things on the bright side. I'm even an optimistic person. I was ready to say goodbye to 2009 -- completely over it. I'm pretty ashamed to admit I was only thinking about the hard things and completely overlooking the fact that 2009 will forever hold some of my very best memories. I mean, I did some cool things, had reunions with some of my best friends, became reacquainted with some old friends, further proved that you don't have to live in the same city to be life friends, found direction in school, had adventures in new cities, and fell completely in love with Ava, a baby that I didn't even birth. I'd say overall, it was good year. Besides, I wouldn't want it easy all the time because that's cheap. I want to have joy from my depths and remind myself that sometimes there is pain in the process. When it's easy it seems I start to rely only on myself, and well, that never gets me anywhere. :)

That being said, I'm happy it's 2010. A new year, a new decade, a new start. Goals were revisited, crossed off, added, and changed. I'm one year closer to being the person I strive to be. And that really makes me happy.

P.S. Two of my very favorite people started new blogs this year and if you're not reading them yet, you should. Check out "The Bolin Adventures" and "Personal Challenge Fitness."